I have to find my patience again. I want so badly to be the zen, centered, peaceful mother I see on TV or read about in blogs. The one who never raises her voice or feels exhausted.
Alas, I am human and not supernatural. I get angry and sometimes I yell. I send my kid to time out about 20 times a day and we both take two minutes to chill, because you see my child has a temper like me as well. Don't get me wrong, we don't freak out or get violent... just frustrated and hard headed.
I would venture to guess that the wish of most single mom is to never worry about money ever again. Yes there are some single parents out there who have plenty of money, whether they work hard for it or not... Good for them and I mean that sincerely. I want nothing more than to see my counter parts succeed! BUT I am not going to lie I am jealous. I KNOW money doesn't buy happiness. I am happy, but my stress level is high due to bills being DUE.
I have to let it go... Let it go... Do what I can, then let it go...
Alas, I am human and not supernatural. I get angry and sometimes I yell. I send my kid to time out about 20 times a day and we both take two minutes to chill, because you see my child has a temper like me as well. Don't get me wrong, we don't freak out or get violent... just frustrated and hard headed.
I would venture to guess that the wish of most single mom is to never worry about money ever again. Yes there are some single parents out there who have plenty of money, whether they work hard for it or not... Good for them and I mean that sincerely. I want nothing more than to see my counter parts succeed! BUT I am not going to lie I am jealous. I KNOW money doesn't buy happiness. I am happy, but my stress level is high due to bills being DUE.
I have to let it go... Let it go... Do what I can, then let it go...
2 comments:
Following you from onemomsbattle.com.
Haven't been through what you have, but a single mom nonetheless.
Hang in there sister!
I just found your blog on top mommy blogs. Read pretty much every post from start to finish. You are inspiring. I too am a single mother to 2 beautiful munchkins. Times are tough, I am not on the receiving end of child support and it really.sucks! We will get through it one day at a time.
I will be looking forward to more posts. Good luck to you and your daughter, she is lucky to have a Mama like you!
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