Sunday, January 16, 2011


I feel a lot happier now that the hardest part is over. I am hoping it will continue.

I honestly do not have the strength or will to write more words. I just want to enjoy some peace.

Friday, January 14, 2011


Sentence: 8 years 4 months

I am exhausted with everything. I need a break.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011


Please whatever higher power may exist,

Get me to Thursday. Let justice pull through. Give me strength. Help the attention blow over quickly. Keep my family out of the media.

Thank you,


Monday, January 10, 2011

2 days...

...until sentencing. Then I can take a break from all the maddness. Just be a single mom raising her daughter. I am ready for this.

Monday, January 3, 2011

I made it. 2011

It has been almost 6 months since everything happend. In nine days my STBXH will be in prison and I will be able to take an extended break from everything.

It is 2011. I fought through the hardest period of my life, I made it. 2010 had more tears than any other, required more strength and in the end gave me the most wonderful gifts I have ever received.

My Daughter was born, she is beautiful and healthy. Everyday I look at her and know why I had to go through everything I went through... because sometimes things as wonderful and amazing as her have to be earned. You may have to cross an ocean, fight through a jungle and travel across a desert to reach your treasures.

The other gift I got was strength. I realized that I have more of it than I ever thought. My advice for anyone going through a difficult time in their life is this: It is just a period of time and it will end. You must push back. A reason to smile doesn't always find you, you may have to go looking for it. It will make you stronger and it will be worth it.

I will leave you with my favorite speech given by Winston Churchill:
"Never, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, give in. Never give in. Never give in. Never give in."