My world is complicated these days. Nobody prepares for the news that the person you trusted more than anyone in the whole world is guilty of a horrendous crime. His family of course loves him and is scared for him, my family is scared of him and does not like him at all... I don't trust him, part of me misses the person I thought he was and part of me is scared of what the future holds. The only thing that is certain is that he will be in jail for at least 5 years.
My body is all new. I am 15 pounds heavier than I was pre-pregnancy, I have stretch marks and one boob is bigger than the other. With all of this said I am trying to embrace the new me. Losing the weight will happen at it's own pace. All I can do is exercise (I have a personal trainer and I play soccer) and eat right (I try... I could do better though!). As for the stretch marks they may fade but they are here to stay and I will learn to live with them. I look decent in clothing and someday I will love myself naked again.
Nugget is wonderful. She is honestly the best! Does she fuss? Yes, but hey she is still the cutest fussy budget I know. She is lucky enough to get a lot of love from my family my ILs and her "aunt" Ice who watches her during the day. She is smiling now and laughing a little :) I just love her so much!